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Things come the best when you expect less

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 12:21:59 GMT

Things come the best when you expect the least

This is a new realization and understanding. I think it means a lot for me.
I am someone who expect a lot from everythings and everyone in my life. I put much effort to hope for things, and to control how the things will go. But I realize that the more effort I put, the least I feel satisfied with the outcome. The problem is I take TOO MUCH of the control, and didn't give any place to the one who creates me, which is the ALMIGHTY GOD.

And after all this while, I am soo tired. My heart needs a long rest. I want to put everything down, to surrender all the things in his hands, and enjoy the things and blessings he will grant in my life.

I have always had my own definition of what is good or bad. But I just realized that my "wisdom" is limited and my strength is always weak whenever I try myself to be strong.

Lord, take my hand and hold my heart, from now on till the end of my life. Amen

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 07:38:27 GMT

Today is a special day,again! Today, I got a job! After struggling for two months here in Singapore, crying myself almost everyday, for the answer that what the life means to be, what kind of job I am gonna get, what is his will in my life.

Everything is over. And soon, I 'll start a new life. I have never thought of entering a Korean based company, further more a shipping company. Everything is just the beginning. I haven't seen all the goodness in it, but I am sure this would be the best if God provides it. What I need to do now is to accept it with a thankful heart, and at the same time, believing in him that he will lead all the way through no matter what happened. It might not seen the best in many aspects, such as salary, working locations, and the jobs scopes which I'm gonna be doing. But when the time comes, I 'll get to understand God's plan in it.

My Prayer: Lord, I thank you for guiding me through in this extremely hard time. I know that I didn't put much effort in it, but you still did provide it due to my needs. You know everything in my minds, you know what I am longing for in my life. Lord, I do not want to make you angry, do not want to do anything that will trigger your anger. Lord, please change my mind, mold my heart, make me obey your words in any circumstances based on faith in you. make me a success in wherever you place me. Amen!!

"the weak say I am strong."

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 02:22:48 GMT

"And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.

I've been struggling hard lately with my own personalities. I hate myself because I want everything to be perfect. This character make myself really suffering and cannot enjoy the things that have been granted by God. I have that "ideal" thing in my mind all the time. putting hopes on humans, that what I think will be the best, and hardly accepting any advices.

I came to understand that everything works out well to glorify the Lord. Why keep holding on something which you can't change? Why not believe in Jesus and surrender under his will, for the most " ideal " thing which is far more better than what you can expected and thought about?

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 21:23:27 GMT

I have not been writing for a couple months.. perhaps almost three months...woo...... anyway, I got a job and have been working for one and a half month at evergreen, a wholesale enterprise that provides foods for the restaurant mainly in Oklahoma. At the beginning, the job was tough for me, as I do not possess any working experience and most importantly the communication skills between customers and coworkers. I was facing a lot of stress from different people and aspects. Things getting better and better when the time passes, I would not say I'm good in dealing with my job now.. but at least ... I know that I'm improving ... day by day... thanks lord! He has been by my side every moment no matter ups and downs... by his grace, through his comforts, words and those who are in him.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 05:25:23 GMT

I went to Edmond today. Leonie brought me for an interview at a wholesale company. I really don't like the working environment, especially when the boss said I need to stay at the warehouse to know well about the company's products and prepare the invoices thingy... oh ... I nearly "pengsan".... nO... I will not consider it~ I was thinking that I rather work in a restaurant than there.. so Leonie brought me to two fancy restaurants in Edmond - - Fuji Sushi Bar & Kang's Fresh Asian Cuisine. To my surprise, both restaurants have the SAME uniform -- black sweartshirt and pants with a red tie. Looks very professional for me. But I do not know whether they will hire me or not. Actually, I do not care what I do now, I just want AT LEAST a part- time job. I will concentrate on my "banking" position at a BANK. This is my target now!!

I ate too much beef today... had vietnamese noodles with well done frank, tendon and tripe in the afternoon at Pho Hoa. At night, Leonie brought me to go to a HongKong restaurant to have Rice with sliced beef & egg.

I was sooo tired after I got back here. Kinda in a "bad" mood and don't like to talk. So I decided to watch an entertainment show sent by Linda two days ago. Later, I talked with Ahmak -- my true friend in Stillwater. He is a nice person, a true friend, and a mature gorgor who cheer me up and support in his ways whenever I'm down. It's really good talking to him ... thanks, makgo!~ You R da BEST ! ! ! Good luck in your interview at S'pore ^.^

Monday, June 20, 2005

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 00:14:58 GMT

I got an interview last Tuesday, I was wearing "black sandals"....
I realized that she wasn't pleased when she saw my feet....
I think I did not give her a good impression....
Lately, I've been thinking of changing my plan to work in Tulsa..
Because I don't have many friends there,
I hope to get one in Edmond or OKC.
Where my *lovely pink lion* is there, lolz.
I need a job....
I need to support myself~
Lord, please give me a job~
For those who are also looking for job,
especially fabulous Frances,
Good Luck and let us "jia you, jia you, & JIA YOU"!! ^o^

Monday, May 09, 2005

Mon, 09 May 2005 01:50:52 GMT

I'm graduated ~!!!!!

Thank you so much my dear family & friends!!....

I luv you all!~

^_*

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Thu, 05 May 2005 17:55:50 GMT

Today is my 22nd birthday... I did not expect much for this birthday.. as when I always did.... It ended up disappointing me .. BUT.. I realized that . things come the BEST when you expect the LEAST....^=^ I got a lot of messages, sms, some calls, and eCards from my friend from different part of the world ..old friends, 'new' friends, .... this is soo amazing... coz they remember my birthday~ I feel so touched and happy to see their greetings.. even though it is simple as "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"... that means a WHOLE LOT for me... one of my BEST friend, NINA, send me a long message along with the eCard, she said
"today is ur special day... the day that God has created you and decided to let u come to this world for His purpose...how exciting is tat"
I think she is absolutely right!! Actually, God also wish me Happie birthday through her words.. and to remind me to being " happy " !! ^o^ He sure is my BEST friend as well as an AWESOME God.... his love for me NEVER perish~!!

Monday, May 02, 2005

Mon, 02 May 2005 20:09:36 GMT

Final week, just finish my banking class presentation today ..

two more to go on Thursday~

Everybody, ganbarimasho!

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 05:00:50 GMT

Chokoreeto *marsh-mallow* Hard ^ Toy ^

~ Suiito poteto ~ chocolate Kin@komochi chocolate

My friend brought these °omiyage± from Japan for me. I like their wrappers, it is so cute and make me °²»ÉįµĆ°ŃĖüĆĒĖŗæŖ ± and wanna keep them forever. But, I still didn’t get to control myself from eating them. =P The hello kitty mash mallow is my favorite among them all. I was surprised to find chocolate in it. Totemo oyishii desu yo neh. Arigatoo, Ayumi Chan ! ^0^